I was pondering "seek ye first the kingdom of God" again today and praying that God would give me His eyes to see what He wants His kingdom here on earth to look like. And I got to thinking of another angle to look at that line from. Now there are probably Biblical scholars out there that would argue with me that this isn't what this verse means, but oh well. It's just a thought, I'm not planning on making rubber bracelets.

Anyway, it seems like a lot of the time I get so caught up looking for things to fit into my expectations that I miss what God is really doing. And when I get frustrated that nobody is living up to my image then I really miss that maybe things are going just exactly how God envisioned it. So I was praying that I would "seek" in the sense of look out for, keep my eyes open for "the kingdom of God" that's already here. That I won't miss what God is doing because I'm in mourning for what, in my opinion, He should be. Heaven help me for when I pin some of my "shoulds" on God. Maybe my three year old daughter was looking through the catalog for pictures of "naked" men but maybe I didn't stop to be grateful that she was very considerate in sharing her swing with her little brother. Maybe my husband did not remember that this was a day of something important to me, but maybe he did pause for a moment of prayer somewhere in his day. Maybe, right now, all of my children are running around without shirts on in a living room that looks like Christmas morning and a slumber party had a collision, but maybe they are laughing hilariously and I'm not exasperated and yelling at them. Don't judge, I said maybe.

So I'm asking that I not be so focused on my image of what I want growth or change to look like that I miss out on the kingdom moments of God ordained growth or change in lives all around me.