Sitting Around

Ironic isn't it. All the business that I normally have going on and here I am sitting on my hands. I guess this is God's way of getting me a much needed break. Owen and Elyse have both been pretty sick and so yesterday I took them in to the doctor. I was afraid to because I knew there wasn't anything they could do besides put him in the hospital. I just kept thinking of the hostage feeling when Elyse was in the NICU for a week. But avoiding going to the doctor doesn't make him need a it any less. So we went, and here we are. Owen has either pneumonia or RSV (pretty similar symptoms) and is on an iv with antibiotics and oxygen. He perked up right away but we are still here until he beats it. And hoping that Elyse doesn't get any worse or they will admit her too. And so I am forced to sit here, hold babies, feed babies and wait. It's kinda nice. I was feeling on the edge of a mental break down and now not only do I have nothing else to do, I also have help! But I wish they would stop sticking needles in my baby, and pumping him full of drugs. And I wish my being here didn't mean that my older two just get dumped on Grandpa. They do well for awhile, but then they suffer from lack of home and schedule. Thankfully there's not a lot of worry that he'll get worse, but there is still the niggling worry that maybe we would have to go down to DesMoines for more intensive care. And so, while I finally have my chance to relax and enjoy my babies, I still am not. I would love to just sleep, but anyone who's ever tried to sleep in a hospital knows how nearly impossible that is with all the in and out of nurses. Not to mention trying to get babies to sleep out of their environment and routine. On the bright side, I don't have much to eat! I'm not tracking my calories right now or exercising obviously but I had Mike bring my box of Kashi and really haven't had much an appetite anyway. Should be good for the weight loosing issue. And there seems to be "Friends" on cable at all hours so I might have the entire ten years watched before I leave!