It's been awhile since I posted again. I just don't get online much when I'm at home. Too many other things to be doing. Been rather busy so far this week. Planning a retreat of sorts with my family this weekend at camp so I've been shopping for that and the included b-day party for Parker, had to travel to Clarion for a party with the great-parents, had company for supper Monday night, and then last night also last minute although they brought their own food. In the midst of that trying to keep up exercising and a regular bedtime for Parker. I had all of these clever insights to write this morning right after I drank my coffee, but they have since faded. Oh well, must not have been that insightful.
Oh, I do remember one of the thoughts though: For the most part I don't complain about being female, because well, it's kinda like the weather, what am I going to do about it? But one thing that annoys me is that when I'm in a bad mood and everything seems bad I can't really know. Is it PMS? Am I pregnant? Have I just not had enough caffeine today? Or do I really have an issue? It gets frustrating really. I mean I know "the heart is deceitful above all things. Who can trust it?" So there's that too. It just makes myself rather hard to live with. :P I tend to do better with my moods if I know what the real cause is; then it can be dealt with and I can move on. Otherwise, it might just PMS but not being able to determine that I blame it on my poor husband and create an issue. It's just messy. Along those lines, I read this great stuff from Lewis this morning in my devotional: "Faith...is the art of holding on to things your reason has once accepted, in spite of your changing moods...unless you teach your moods "where to get off," you can never be either a sound Christian or even a sound atheist, but just a creature dithering to and fro, with its beliefs really depending on the weather and the state of its digestion."
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