The week in review:

I've been struggling with bordem this week. Not so much that I have nothing to do, but that I'm bored with what I do have to do. This presents two problems: 1. I eat when I'm bored and 2. I get emotional and start blowing up those balloons to throw a pity party for lack of anything better to do. So I've been fighting off those two extremes with varying degrees of success.

My appetite has been crazy; I've been wanting to eat everything I shouldn't and constantly. It didn't help that I made an amazing pan of brownies on Monday with the plan of taking them to a friend on Tuesday and then I didn't go so those evil things stayed in my house. Warm, with a little peppermint ice cream....But even sunflower seeds, I just keep eating. One thing that contributes to this is that I've been trying to cut back on my 3 a day coffee habit so I have a caffeine-deficit and am trying to fill that hole with food. If I were wise and disciplined I would be doing that with fiber and vitamin filled fruits and vegetables, right? Nope, cheez-its would be where I head in the afternoon. :P Another thing that I was pondering today was that I haven't had any meat for about the last week; the same amount of time that I've really been feeling just hungry all the time. Last night I had some chicken for supper and this morning I was just fine. Ate my oatmeal for breakfast and made it through to lunch without being ravenous. Interesting,no? Could it be that I am in reality craving meat and the nutrients there-in and finally having some could have that far reaching of affects? It's worth keeping in mind, I think.

As for the emotionalism, I think and pray that I have avoided attending the party. At least I don't think I've bitten my husband's head off. And he has greatly improved my outlook by booking us a Valentine's Day get away to Ames and the Gateway hotel. Wasn't that sweet? I had told him that he didn't have to do anything, and really meant it. I've been focusing on how he does loving things all year, like shovel the snow and take out the garbage. But he certainly went over and above with this, and I really appreciate it, because I need a change of scenery. And it shows that he knows what I like which is the part that really counts. Now if only the weather will cooperate to get us down there...