So, I LOVE Christmas time. Just had my birthday and now enjoying these days in between and all of the fun get togethers they bring. However, things aren't looking too promising this year. First of all there is apparently a huge nasty weather system moving in that involves lots of snow, ice, and wind. They're saying to not plan on going anywhere all of the days surrounding Christmas. So there goes the trips we had planned to two family Christmases. I've been trying to think of how I can still make it festive for us if we're snowed in here and not feel like we're missing out on Christmas. Now today, my sister-in-law asked if she could stay with us. I love her dearly and there is no reason why she shouldn't stay with us except for my selfishness and perfectionism. See if she's here I won't be able to have Christmas just how I want it, won't be able to keep my house up to my standards of tidiness, and my husband will be distracted and goofing off with her. Not the romantic snowed in picture that I had been imagining. But I know this is a lousy attitude and if I don't shake it I'm going to be the one to ruin Christmas for myself and possibly the others too. I will be silent and moody, shooting my husband dark looks whenever he does something I can find a way to be annoyed with. It's embarrassing, but that is what I do more often then I'd like to admit. Or, I could pray for grace and choose to be joyful and hospitable, giving her a warm home to enjoy Christmas in where she feels a part of things and my husband can take pride in the home he has to share and feel at peace and loved there. And we can have fun in our stuck-ness, play games, stay up late, eat Christmas food; make a real two (or more) day party of it. That's the ticket! If I can give up my perfectionism and enjoy the moment rather than worrying about the mess or how Christmas is "supposed" to be in my head. (I get myself into more trouble with my "supposed too's). So please pray for me, this Christmas looks like it's going to be up to my attitude and I so want to take this as a chance for growing and not wallow in disappointment and self-pity. Choosing gratitude and joy....
P.S. My shoulder is twitching. Always such a weird feeling.
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