The Good: I had a great conversation with my Grandma yesterday. I don't know why talking to her about faith is so intimidating to me. But I realized last night when reading about Jim Elliot and the lance throwing Auca indians that it shouldn't take so much courage to talk to my grandma who can't throw much worse than a tv remote. Anyway, she's taking treatments for cancer right now so of course eternity has been brought to the forefront of all of our minds. I guess I mentioned on there that Pastor Tom had been to talk to her, but I know that also I need to be obedient and talk to her myself. So yesterday I got the opportunity to go visit her and Grandpa and help them out a little bit, take them some food, and just visit. And Grandma and I really got into stuff about faith, and heaven, and how to get there, and how we're never going to be "good enough" and we can't even keep up trying to think positive thoughts everyday. As I look back on it now I can see where I missed several good "ins" to really be direct about salvation and how to be sure of heaven, but I am also grateful for the words God did give me and hope that the scripture is resonating with her. She knows all this stuff, she just needs to remember it and claim it. And hopefully this was just breaking the ice for both of us and that there will be a next time and easier now. So very grateful for that opportunity, and even just for the fact that I was obedient.
The Bad: The reason that we were over in G&G's area is that I was trying out a new pediatrician for Parker. She was nice enough, but unfortunately not right for us. I was so hopeful too. I'm not a big doctor person but I would love to have one that I could trust for when we need it. Usually in these situations I just clam up and think "get me out of here," but this time I stuck with it and asked her my questions and actually disagreed with her some, so I was grateful for that courage. However, right away she found out that Parker was "behind" on his vaccines and I kinda lost her because all of the bells and whistles were going off in her brain. I asked her about breastfeeding and chiropractic care and other things of importance to me but she said "the important thing right now is that we get him up to where he should be on his vaccines." Now, no matter how you feel about vaccines, I hope you would agree with my immediate thought as it was "no lady, that's not the most important thing. The most important thing to me is that you know my child and are able to give him the best possible care and help. NOT that he checks out on the CDC website." So that kinda checked her out in my book. That and that she more or less said breastfeeding or formula are equal in value and that there is no reason to breastfeed after 2 years. Um....I mean come on. Ok so vaccines are controversial and nothing is really for sure there good or bad, but breastfeeding?? Tons of Ph.'d Doctors recognize breastfeeding as far far superior and has so many benefits beyond just feeding. I realized that I don't necessarily need a doctor that shares all of my same view points, but I would like one that thinks for himself and keeps up on the research beyond what the CDC website says. I know there are some out there, they just live in California darn it.
The Ugly: My eating habits lately. I'm still exercising regularly, even more than my 3 times a week. But I snack little bits here and there and I'm sure I'm going over my calories but I'm not tracking them anymore so I can pretend I'm not. :P Not doing anyone any good. I haven't reached my goal, but the results have slowed down and I'm happy with where I am, so I'm less motivated. But I really don't think I should give up here because 1. I'm too easily going back to my old habits so apparently they need more rooting out and 2. I don't want to just give up on my goal; if I stop it will be because I feel I have reached the healthy weight for me and I don't know that I have yet. So....what do I do? Hm..and the holidays are fast approaching too...
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